Happy New Year My A$$

Ain't nothing happy about this new year. Bahumbug.

I'm in debt, I'm about 5 lbs overweight (ok ok, more like 17lbs!!), I'll be a quarter century year old without a steady/livable salary, I work 6 days a week (and still can't afford ANYTHING), and it's been over a year and my hair still hasn't grown back (that's a whole 'nother story for another post...)!!!

Simply put, I hate this time. Everybody looks back at the last year and we always promise to improve on things in the new year. But somehow it ends up being the same vicious cycle...

1. I know that I will go hard at the gym for about 2 months, then totally fall off and gain back the weight.

2. I'll take my vitamins everyday...until Valentine's Day.

3. I'll continue the never ending cycle of going to church, backsliding, going back to church, being MIA from church, and then full circle again...back to church! 'Tis a good thing the Lord is a loving and FORGIVING God!

One thing I know for sure is that 2008 was actually a good year, I'll admit I got a lot accomplished, but there is one thing in particular that happened in 2008 that I wish I could erase:


What is there to look forward to that'll be different from the following years?
Well, I'm a sucker for self-help books (and boys with mohawks...amongst other things...hee hee), so I'm hoping Suze Orman can help a sister out this year. Y'all know who she is right? She's that loud, blond, cropped haired rich lady on CNBC that tells you what you should do with your money. I'm reading her "Women and Money" book. Yo', THIS BOOK IS THE TRUTH. I'm reading how I can "save myself" as she so correctly puts it. What I'm hoping for this new year is to get my 'ish together once and for all. I been in school for the last 6 years. Now it's time to be an adult, start a savings plan even though I don't make enough to eat daily with, start a 401k, get a husband, have babies (oh wait, those last two were for the 2012, not 2009, my bad...lol).

In order to be powerful as she so delicately puts it, lol, you've got to be clean! Like, know where all your paper work is, make sure your closet is in tact, etc. Sooooo, first thing I'm doing this new year is literally cleaning out my closest. I've got a closet of clothes that is so packed that it's hard finding anything in there. I think it's finally time to let go of those dresses that I keep promising myself I'll fit into again...sigh... or those jeans that I swear will come back in style...sigh...

Basically, her point in having an orderly closest is that this will translate and marinate into other areas of your life! Makes sense doesn't it? Plus, how I am to wear my "power business suit" (everyone woman has one of these) to work if I can't even find it in my closest which is full to the brim?! So, this is just the first phase of the "saving myself" process. I'll be sure to share with each step I take to make sure this year, 2009, is different from yesteryears. And Suze will be holding my hand, every step of the way...

'Til we type again,
Rasheeda